Monday, February 18, 2008

Forgive and Ignore

Life is really a big game...or rather to say a tough game....but this statement itself is very obnoxious or illusive in nature !!! because when we see or take life as a game....we are more concerned about the results... whether we win or lose !!! Due to which we start taking each and every small phase of life as an tournament. and when we think about those moments we react accordingly..depending upon the results....
When we were kid, we used to be the king of the house ! all our needs and necessities were taken care by some or the other person...whether we are hungry ,or we need to play...or may it be the simple case of nature's call there used to be some one to take care of it... then when we grew a little bit...those people surrounding us expected us to take care of pretty simple things...which they used to take care ! This is a simple transformations.. then we grew up a little more.. now we were expected to take care of each and every action of ours and expected to perform as per the social; rules and demands.. now it was the time every where we faced the challenge of survival for the fittest....................... And beyond our own expectation and imagination we survived... we survived for our own existence and for our own desire to be there...where we are.!
Now we know we are young, responsible for all the needs and deeds of ourselves...here we have to be not just ourselves but also themselves... I know this is quote is itself quite ambiguious,but I really believe it... I am a person who is very particular and specific by nature...Sometimes I have faced very awkward and abrupt situation due to this....and the root cause of those was my expectation from the fellow mates to be particular, specific in all those things which I used to... and when I didn't get them...I took it as a matter of life and death..a matter of win or lose....but now when I have faced several situations...I have not left my nature of being specific and particular ...because I think that's my USP..but I have learnt not to expect it, not to expect this from my surrounding, there have some time in my past when I have eradicated all my desire and needs in a day just due to bad or spoiled mood...which atlast effected me ...it was me who was always in loss..because, The person who cause this to me was totally unaware of his/her action, as it was not crucial for them as it was for me, I don't blame it to anyone !!! And believe me, it helped me a lot, a lot in living this life truly , the way I want to live it !!! I don't advice this world to leave their desire to turn into some one else but I just request this to all those person who love life and want to live it to fullest.
True mantra of living the life peacefully and without tensions is " Forgive and Ignore". Forgiving everyone for all those things which effected you and ignore ...because that will effect only and only you....finally the loss will be yours!!!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Soul !!!!

I am sad she knows that, I happy she also knows that...today i am chirpy like a school girl , few days back i was an old granny, Now I feel I am stucked in a quicksand from where I cant come out, but in the next moment i feel free like a bird..................
she is a silent observer of all my emotions rather i say all my rationally opposite emotions of which i am unaware most of the times.. i shout on her why this injustice is done to me? I cry to her why i am not the chosen one? I laugh loudly sometimes, on being appreciated....and sometimes ,sometimes i tell her i just wanna keep quiet and wanna enjoy solitude !!!....she never asks me why? She never demands anything to me !! she keep on experiencing me silently, she knows all i want is to express myself ....express my feelings,emotions and my sensitivity !!!!
I never ask her is she ok? I never even try to understand whether she is interested or not? me? I dont remember how my life used to be when she was not around me ! Actualy that can be just a state of mind ....in reality that cant happen !!!!! She is my soul....we cant depart !!!