Survivor !!!

She was innocent, she was simple, she was fresh, and she was pure, unaware of the rules and regulation of the big ruthless world. She thought and believed that the world is as pure as the dew drop, she believed in trust, hard work, and dedication. She believed in “doing it right " and she believed in “if you have never harmed anyone no one can harm you”, she lived in her own fairy land surrounded by angels and fairies!!! But suddenly one day she landed in the world of “projects, bench, deliverables, deadlines, pressure, work culture, professionalism, decorum, analysis, innovative thought, quarterly ratings, confirmation, timelines, and guidelines”. She tried to cope up, in few months she realized that the whole project world was going through a disease called as “FAVOURITISM”!!!!” Initially it was not clearly visible to her rather she couldn’t realize it …..she thought this is also a typical human behavior and as she is new, she was unaware of the symptoms, she thought this a change in the environment and she should have an open mind towards the changes, because she still believed in her self-defined mantra “if you have never harmed anyone no one can harm you” along with the “Bhagwat Geeta” “you just perform your work rest will be taken care”. But there has to be an end of self-beliefs! Because the world surrounding her was living with the parasite “irrationality” which actually infected the world of projects, by Favoritism. This particular disease can push oneself direct to the top of Mount Everest in a moment, and in the other under the depth of Pacific Ocean. To survive the disease …….the most important needed medicine is a Godfather!!! No other side byes like performance, consistency, or intelligence is required!!! Because Godfather is so strong and effective that the effect of all these other things are just negligible!!!

So what she was hard working? So what if she was and sincere? What’s the big deal if she was efficient??? Did she have a “GODFATHER”? Was there anyone who can blindly favour her? Was there anyone who can blindly recommend her???

People came and asked her to fight for her true rights, asked her to make the gods of project world to be answerable….!!! She tried , tried very hard unaware of the fact that there also she will meet the giant favoritisms !!!!!

Today her life is normal and usual…though still today she doesn’t have any Godfather. Even today she doesn’t have her complete rights, she deserved, though today also she is not being praised for her good work and even today she is not recommended for responsibilities. But whenever she asks herself, what did she achieved by being honest, hardworking and a fighter???? What did she achieve fighting for her true rights????
Her inner core answers “Feeling of being a fighter and a proud survivor of the calamity called FAVOURITISM”.

Rethinking hope !!!

Today I got up at 8:00 AM in the morning …so it was a comparatively a late start….any way I picked up the news paper and went thru the headlines which was about the political crisis Indian government is facing ….all the fact and figures were exponentially derived by the analysts in the article but the main thing which attracted my attention were photograph of six persons who were claimed to play the key role for the future of UPA government. Currently UPA government is struggling to prove their majority in the parliament. All of them are Member of Parliament (MP) who currently are in prison. Most of them are accused of murder, gang war, illegal business and the list goes on an on, 50% of them are sentenced for life imprisonment. One of them is accused of murdering an I.A.S. officer. I was so shattered and shocked reading this, as now these criminals will decide the fate of a government which is said to be democratic “for the people and by the people”. I know this not for the first in the Indian history that any government is facing issues and also not very new or something special or unknown fact being shared…but still as a responsible citizen of this country I feel very sad.. very very very sad that what kind of examples are we going to set ??? I have always seen in several bollywood movies that the villain in the movie is a MLA (member of legislative assembly) or MP who is very corrupt and has a strong criminal background. He commits many crimes but breathes the freedom. And then there will a “hero”, who is a true Indian, whose veins flows country love instead of blood. He will fight against the villain (MLA/MP) and get back every thing to back normal and there will be law and order maintained everywhere!!! But I know life not cinema..nor these six people are villain of and movie … they are hard core criminal……in whose hand the future of the ruling party…….. lies. They will bargain their imprisonment for their freedom…and I am not sure but may be they succeed and set examples for their follower, how to use their power of crime!!! We all are very well aware that rate of crime and corruption in India is quite high but still, I feel we all Indians have some hope in our hearts that …..these conditions will improve someday. But these incidents make me think again to hope !!!!!!!

I am ready !!!

Life is beautiful…life is wonderful….Life is lyrical…its musical…….Life is Mysterious!!
I have many more definitions…..but right now I feel to say life is demanding and challenging.
Because from past few days I feel difficulty and hindrances …hurdles everywhere…
So what…..if its difficult to regain…and retain strength??
So what if its near to impossible to be 100% optimist and perfect??

I am geared up……geared up of every challenge…
Every challenge life has stored for me!!!
I know life has its own traits…!!!
Ready to face any thing be it…boss’s humiliation….…or be it friend’s acquisitions!!
Ready for being called irresponsible…..ready for all those agitations!!!
I am ready…even ready for all those 1000000 questions which I need to solve before November.
I am ready to do and die!!!
I am ready to face me and my!!!!

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Self Actualization

These days I am relatively free at my work place…I work for the software industry where we are allocated to some project…and now a days whichever project I am getting allocated either that get scrapped or its release gets delayed. !!! Which gives me ample of time for myself…to carve my idle time into some useful stuff…like to chat in orkut or gtalk !![:P] even I can’t do these things properly as I am being watched by some or other person …….then the million dollar question is what should I do when I am “comparatively “ free at my workplace ?? Shall I spend my time attending some non relevant training?? Or shall “I explore the system “as suggested by them!!!! But despite of doing all these useful stuff I thought and lot to decide what I shall do…and decided to read some online books…I started off with “Princess Diaries” Meg Cabot …Once I started it..there was no looking back and I wanted to finish the whole series…I am still chasing this mission ..but a term used in this book inspired me a lot and that was “ Self Actualization” Like the main protagonist of the novel I also want to achieve “self actualization” And for achieving this state I have decided to follow the mantra of self respect !!
Self satisfaction and self respect will be my motivation!!! This is going to be my next mantra for pleasant and happy life…some months back I quoted ….”forgive and ignore” then my mantra…and found it quite successful for pertaining peace…so now onwards I will try to follow the second mantra…” Ignore and avoid “because its you and your family and your close niche of friend who is centre of your world … anyone out of that criteria should not affect me neither physically nor mentally, lets se how much I can follow this rule no.2 because I find it quiet difficult…
May be some day I will be also able to achieve “ SELF ACTUALIZATION”
I wish myself all the best !! So that I may achieve it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

An unusual experience in a usual day !!!!!

It was like just another weekend..very usual.. I went for shopping to Crawford Market with my friend while coming back we took a train from churchgate for andheri as usual we boarded in the ladies compartment..it was not too crowded we were just moving toward our destination passing each station.. it was around 9:00PM my co passengers were of different ages, belonging to different communities of the societies…few were busy talking among themselves while few were absorbed by their headphones
( which is a very usual trends in metro cities…thanks to the radio channels and the mobile manufactures !!) Any way I also belong to this group but “unfortunately” I forgot mine at my home, so I was reading Filmfare(as it featured Shahrukh) and my friend was reading Femina ! Meanwhile a very unusual but pleasant sound grabbed my attention …… I saw a very young boy (aged around 15 years) was playing a bollywood number in his Instrument ….Being trained in Indian Classical music I am aware of most of the Indian and western musical instruments but this one was really very different…And I was unaware of the name. It sounded like but designed like Ektara…but it was not ektara as it had 4 strings….and that boy was playing it so beautifully that even if you don’t have a music sensitive ear then also you will find it pleasant….but as its there metro culture nobody was interested in his music as people were to busy with their headphones . After completing the first song he played the next number which was a purely based on Raag Lalit ( It was kind of dhun ) !!! I was so amused and astonished that I was hardly able to stop myself talking with him …but somehow I didn’t!!!! I don’t know why ? I don’t how did he played that piece but I must say he was really very good at that. And if you are really interested in some form of music..you cant let off yourself from it !!! Then my destination Arrived and I gave that boy some money and moved out of train heading towards my Home…All that night I kept on thinking that why these kind of talent are never nourished, Why this form of music will be just a side by for all of us ! I don’t know I could I have helped him, giving him some money will definitely help him fulfilling his daily needs but, I wish I can do something more for all these street child who have some or other kind of talent in them. These kind of talent really make me feel that if this raw then how will it be after processing !!

1 year in Mumbai !!!!

Mumbai....city of dreams, city of hope, city of new horizons, city of colors…..and many mamy more adjectives can be added but in a single world it can be metaphor as “Alive”. Here every thing has a life…an urge!!! Be it the terrific traffic or be it the overloaded local trains. The first time when I came to this city…I was 8 years old, it seemed too huge, crowded and dirty! I was lost in the local train….my parents were unable to get my down in that over crowded Mumbai local…somehow they managed to find me!!! That day.. I pledged to God..I will never ever come back in this ruthless city never ever !!!! But today after 16 years…I am here celebrating my successful 1 year stay in the city of creams and hope….I really love the city..I love its every mood.. be it totally damp and wet Mumbai of July or totally dry and hot Mumbai of April. Whatever be the climatic conditions this city is always to cool to explore…it never stops. that’s why I said its alive !!! what you need is just time to explore the place I bet you will be in love with it. It has its own charisma its own charm…its starts right from the Arabian sea..i will never say Mumbai has great beaches..or great sea shores to hang around..but the it has Nariman Point or Priyadarshini park cliff..both the place will give an entirely different mood and feel of the city Nariman Point is like a diamond which shines on after polishing it…where as priyadarshini park is a place which is so calm and quiet….if you go n visit worli seaface….its again totally different. Here you will find life and youthfulness . Oh how can I forget Aksa ..its a very ecstatic beach near Malad here Arabian sea is lit bit harsh..people say its dangerous ..but what I feel is its just like your childhood where u are completely carefree and innocent !

Mumbai..known as paradise for shopper’s. There is not a single street present in Mumbai where you won’t find small roadside shops selling very exquisite and exclusive stuff. Which you can only find in Mumbai…be it Crawford market..or be it’s the linking road of bandra..clothes …clothes and clothes all over….Its really heaven . If Zaveri bazaar is exclusive for jewelry…then khav gali is famous for Indian cuisines…if chembur market is famous for leather goods…then dadar is famous for flowers….really every bit of Mumbai has its own flavor and feel.

If you rreally wanna find some peace in you life…just spend some time at ISKON juhu.. I bet you will be feeling refreshed..and full of positive hopes. I do agree that Mumbai is overcrowded and too fast…but this has its own adventure and that’s the it is……

Every new day has some adventure in it…your everyday life is eventful when you are in Mumbai….I feel I can stay in any part of the world if I have successfully completed my one year here…Really Hat’s Off MUMBAI !!!